this evening i have been left alone at 6pm as my other half has taken all three kids to football. the relief i feel actually made me cry with joy, genuinely.

its been a along time

hello blog its been a long time and i have miss missed missed you though you are but a orange logo on the  corner of my screen. it has been the longest winter of my life these last few years. cold and hateful losing my sister who is gone gone gone, and she aint never coming back. i think i am in a new grieving process where i simply have her my sister in my mind all de time. and yet she been taken. god. explain please.

miserablefucker

so it's been a long weekend and not in the way you would want it to be. lots of scratchy people nearest and dearest being very scratchy! eeeeeek. nails on chalk board. why must we suffer these souls? in 3 hours 7 years ago, i squeezed (sorry) out a baby girl of most unique quality. today i have scratchy people around me. fuck the scratchy people!!!!