tick tock until beer or wine o clock. life is pretty tough right now with not much let up. ping pong everything's wrong, twist and shout, everybody out (meg and mog, rescue spell).
good day mostly kids wise. big son entered a drama group like a person being pushed to the edge of a cliff, and left really cheerful and confident- high five! little daughter and neph spent day together and went to the park. baby 1yr- had fun on swings. but it is all quite hard right now- emotionally, financially; work wise (not enough)..... alcohol wise (too much pain relieving), house wise- it remains a tip i can't get on top of. but tomorrow is another day i guess. i am gonna go to bed soon and wake up tomorrow with renewed enthusiasm and energy.
all the different people are walking sludgily through the daily shit getting irritated and getting fed up, getting hungry, cracking up; needing more, needing money this old life it aint so funny.
i feel really angry right now with things. with big people who have no damn idea of stuff. i feel like i might just opt for a nervous breakdown at least i'd get some bed rest and medication to block out alkl the living nightmares.
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