having dreamt many mixtures of strange wispy jigsaw puzzle dreams i am awake. i sit alone in my kitchen, dressed. i went to the local shop at 5 45 am to buy some 7 up because the sink was so full of things i cold not pour a glass of water.that sounds dreadful considering people in some places can't even find water to drink fall stop. but in my context I guess I am in a weird place right now. i am somewhat in habit of drinking cold sweet sugary drinks in the morning. i got up early to do some house work and everyone is asleep. i haven't really done much, preferring to sit and stare out of the window. i have emptied the sink at least. if i was to really tidy up I'd wake everyone up and i am not ready for company. the birds sang very loud this morning and a cat cried outside my house.i think of my sister. that is all i can do. i feel she has really gone to another place and i can't reach her.
it is, i think, quite a strange life.