or so my little sister went off to university and my big sister was one year into being treated for leukaemia. i started to do this blog because sadly, i have an eternal capacity to think everything that is happening, or to need to share it, to spill it. i thought that eventually it would metamorph into an ability to write stories or a novel or something. i lament this has not occured.
off my little sister has gone for her second year; and she like me and my entire family are changed people, matured by the hard and cruel reality of life that doesn't spare you even when you thought you were somehow exempt from it's darker arrows.
that sweet eldest sister who was one year in to a hateful illness is no longer with us and our big sister, big sister to eight of us siblings left behind has gone. we are all in our twenties and thirties now but the loss of her feels like she has been ripped out of the bedroom we used to share as children when we would play games like cowbank and libraries - memories only she and i share-
memories of all our fights and squabbles, hopes and dreams.
death is like a silent invisible thief. it steals you away from under the loving hands that try to keep you here.
i am going to go to the graveyard today and water the plants.
as a big sister she was unique and made you laugh and chuckle. she had a wise approach to life and was very reassuring and encouraging.
my children (including her little one) are all arguing loudly so i can't focus.
next time.
and i love you forever sis and i always will.
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I am sorry for your loss. Cancer is a cruel, cruel evil.
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