quite lost without you

you know sis i really had no idea you were gonna leave us. I mean, you are so there, so very there that to even imagine not having you there is simply not possible. and yet you have gone and you are not there.  i don't know what to say except that it is like a beautiful aspect on the horizon has been removed. i love you and hope you are reading this although with any luck you are having a fantabulous time and are not yet getting down to reading xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx