12 minutes past 10 and baby 2 age 4 has emerged from upstairs bright and f*** ing wide awake to tell me something really important. my heart is veritably racing with need to be child free for just a while. if she comes back down i may scream.

it is infuriating

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

i am just going to pour out my infuriated heart as no one is looking any way.

it makes me so damn angry when i am so damn patient when my damn kids just wont stay in damn bed.

they get sodding insomnia and it drives me sodding crazy.

i am not ready for bed yet i have to dampen my desires and patiently lie with them.

its ok sometimes but sometimes its to much.

i am so not miss sodding perfect i am so damn imperfect and i am so getting ffed off with incessant children. and i don't really have any more to damn well say.