LATER

BEEN WATCHING BIG brother been quite into it this year.
so much for not drinking i have been enjoying a nice bottle of red which has aided me in my duties and i just hope will not keep me a slumber in the morning when it is all action ready set go.

tomorrow i will be spending the morning with an elderly lady 84 year old lady for a chat and any help she needs.
then back to mine to make nice and tidy for my daughter's friend, mum and baby sister to visit.

i don't really have visitors much, my home is like an open wound of my brain so i don't invite just anyone, but i hope to make it hospitable enough to make us all have a nice time.

i was talking to a lovely friend this evening about how i feel the need to tidy up etc etc when someone comes to visit  and she said it doesn't matter; take me or leave me my house is my home it is me if you don't like it go away. but then she hasn't been to my home lately it feels like a giant squid has entered and done a huge shit that has spread into every room with things and bits.

i crawled around on the kitchen (minuscule) floor with a scrubbing brush the other day trying to clean it and make it nice it still looks like shit and half of this evening's dinner and washing now seem to be strewn left right and centre. but, hey i will come home tomoro at 12 and clear up and prepare the tea- hummus with vegetables and pitta and chocolate cake and ice cream and it will be fine.

i guess its just certain people that give me the heebie jeebies when they come into my house but these friends are lovely. i know it. will post back how it went.

but i am not ready to finish yet.

i am staying up for a bit.
okay so it is now a bit later and i have done some house work tidying kitchen , laundry and so on. everyone is asleep i do believe which is a singular joy.
good night.