i invited my parents over tonight for a potato, spinach and  chickpea curry and they came and it was very nice.
i bought a bottle of dry rose to have and some sour cream that my big son bought from sainsburys. they stayed a while and it was really nice to feed them. that may sound strange, but in light of the general day to day misery of not really wanting to eat, to feed ones parents is a pleasure. no one really has an appetite at the moment so eating with others or even better, cooking for others brings some sense to the act of eating.

i walked to get daughter 5yrs from school today as it was warm and i could not face driving such a short way. plus i needed to go shopping and thought she'd like a scoot on her new scooter.
on the way down the hill from her school i saw some floor tiles b and q basic ones left outside a house against a wall clearly left for me i guess; i took them as my bathroom floor tiles are the white plastic ones from b and q and they are forever filthy.

then Amelie expressed a desire to find rubber bands. suddenly it seemed there were rubber bands at every glance and she collected them up one by one and tethered them to her scooter as is the current fashion. i told Amelie that as her aunty is now an angel in heaven that she could make rubber bands come for us. and come they did.

then at the bottom of the hill i saw on a wall a beautiful clock with the shop tag still on, a clock shaped like an orange elephant, made of metal and really quite beautiful. i knocked on the door of the house and in the window i saw a little girl and i showed her the elephant clock- can i take this?- i mouthed. she gestured she'd come to the door and moments later a i heard a voice down a side alley. then i saw the little girl and behind her a mum i know of a little boy who is now about 9. i took the clock and me and the woman i know hugged as i told her of my sisters passing. she was sad. but my sister's favourite animal recently was an elephant.
i then went on to get the ingredients for the curry.