my kitchen is a total mess again

it is as usual a total dump and as usual i am not looking forward to getting it sorted. i took the kids out today to a local funfair and they had loads of fun. then we went to a pet shop and my big son bought a ferret cage with his birthday money. he is planning to buy a ferret next Friday. yuk, they smell apparently, but i think he needs to get it out of his system; he needs a creature to bestow his love on.
little d and a are watching astro boy on the sofa, hopefully they will fall asleep there and baby is finally asleep.
tomorrow the kids are gonna go to their uncles house so i can have a bit of time off from kids.
i have a plan. i am going to buy a spade as our one has disappeared and i want to dig stuff up and replant it.  my partner is complaining constantly about stuff and i find it so damn infuriating. 'i would love to go to a fair all day' he exclaims when i say he has had plenty of time without kids. yeah whatever. standing in a cold cloudy park with a heavy restless baby on hips watching children go form attraction to attraction; no where to sit down; etc etc; then off to play in the park; then to pet shops to stumble round the smelly place patiently waiting for children to look at all the pets. yeah, you'd love it much better than being alone at home doing stuff you like to do.
he likes things just so. he likes to be able to play darts- or practise rather- without kids underfoot; without tumble driers going; without anyone interrupting, he likes a hot supper and clean clothes and children cared for; a tidy house; a clean tidy car; no stuff lying about; a full fridge; me time; watching sport; not that he gets all those things but that's what he likes. not devoting an entire day to the whinging moany needs of kids; of going from pillar to post to entertain them rather than just plonking them in front of the TV and getting on with stuff more suited to the self. he must think that i find it fun running round like a fucking headless chicken and devoting myself to kids all day. then rewarding myself with doing the laundry and feeding people and comforting them when they cry etc. moan moan moan.